In the Den of Thieves

Hatachi desu

2008-05-17T04:35:01Z

So far, my 20th year has been spent doing a lot of reflection, a lot of repenting...aaaaand...a lot of homework.

I suppose I'm finally getting into the swing of being in class again...after taking a year off from school and then just doing one 4 credit class for the last two quarters, it's been hard to convince myself that I'm actually in school. I've begun to finally realize what it takes to make myself work, and I'm currently trying to stick to that as best I can.

I've been really thinking a lot about my life. What I want to do, how I want to do it, who I want in it...that sort of thing. I've been putting decisions off way too much, thinking "I'll do that some day..." when I should have been figuring out how to do it now. I don't want to be constantly putting stuff off. It's a waste. My life is not going to happen someday, it's happening right now and I might as well enjoy it to the fullest.

I've been trying to get healthier because...well, frankly, I'm falling apart. The way that I've treated myself and eaten over these past 12 years have been rather terrible, and it's been taking it's toll on my health a lot lately. My back is in horrible shape, my bones are rather weak, don't even fucking ask about my liver. I've stopped drinking my tea as much, because of the sugar I pour into it. As a result, I'm currently in withdrawal of both caffeine and sugar. This makes me have horrible headaches, and fall asleep randomly throughout the day. Since I've started eating healthy foods, I've actually been feeling worse...but I'm currently chalking that up to detox and withdrawal, and hoping it will pass soon. (This will be so much easier over the summer, when I have a kitchen :D).

I'm incredibly happy with almost all the people in my life right now. I have an amazing love, who brought me pieces of the colosseum for my birthday (as well as changing around flights to make sure he came home in time for my birthday, and taking care of me when I'm sick and kicking me out of bed in the morning so I can go to class...) really, how can you beat that?
And the friends I have surrounded myself with...are really more like family than anything.

Basically...life is pretty good. And going to be even better, once I get time to take a break...4 weeks to go! :D

Sooo...

2008-05-05T22:00:34Z

...I'm 20.

Yeeeeah.

GOD I'm just such a sexy beast

2008-04-29T18:29:18Z

So I'm going to have to trust Corey more often.

I just got asked out by the guy who "DEFINITELY doesn't like me like that. He smiles at everyone."

And is 28. I feel young, for once. XD

(Apparently he was VERY interested, too, he kept asking how serious we were >_>; and if we were planning to get married. Etc. SDJHSKDHFKSDFLK)

(I just realized this is the first time I've ever, by myself and intentionally, turned someone down. Wow. I'm kind of oblivious)

And Corey, if you're reading this, I was wrong and you were right XP (though I doubt you're reading this...but just in case you miraculously get the internet, I need help...)

So Corey didn't want me to take the first half of summer classes, because he wants to go home and visit his family, and was worried about leaving me here alone (in all fairness, some shifty stuff does go on on campus. Rape, murder, theft...that sort of thing.) But I just found out two very important things.

Thing 1: The main class that I was interested in taking (Singing and speaking the Irish language) is offered for the FIRST half of the summer. I want to take this class more than I can describe. I want it. I need it. Oh baby oh baby. Also, the teacher is supposed to be a life changer.

Thing 2: Is very important. Michael has decided to take summer classes too. So if I stay, Michael, Meg and I can all apply for the same apartment. Meaning I would not be alone, and potentially will have a big Jewish escort on the way back from class at night. Meaning Corey could go back to New Hampshire and have fun and be fancy free, and I can study all summer. Yay?
(Actually, yes, partial yay, I'll be studying Gaelic, book binding and silk screening).

Soooo...Corey, miraculously develop an internet connection and give me an opinion. If you do not perform this miracle, I'll probably sign up for the full summer session. And then you can't get mad. Because it's your fault for not being psychic enough.

(LOL, my horoscope for today: "Taurus: Someone will try to cross the line from friend to something more, but you're just not ready to go there!")

...

2008-04-18T09:31:55Z

...So Corey and I are married.

SEX NINJA

2008-04-12T07:04:18Z

You only answer "Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps"

2008-03-30T08:50:15Z

Everyone is sitting in the common room, catching up after our week apart. Laughing. Having a gay old time.

Normally, I would be too. I've become quite sociable since I moved to Washington, really. Quite a turn around for me. I've been letting people in where I have tried very hard to avoid doing so in the past.

But people say they love me. Not many, of course, I've never been quite considered "popular", by any stretch of the word. In fact, no matter where I go, I seem to make at least one enemy. Whether it's me being selfish, or telling someone flat out what I think of them, or just plain not cleaning up after someone else's boyfriend, I attract that. Some random person who takes it on themselves to hate me. I do, however, have my small, comfortable friend base.

Except I don't feel like being with them tonight. Really, I want out. I need to get away, contemplate, etc. I feel like I'm trying to lead a double life...but I'm not. I guess I need to..."recharge", one might say. I feel depleted. While I love my friends, and can really tell them almost anything, I still sometimes just need to be alone to think, cry, listen to music...be emo and cut myself or something.

I took a break. One week off, where I was in the mountains, resting, chatting, being around people and no internet. Just one week.

When the internet came back, it told me my life had been significantly fucked in my absence. "But how?" I asked. "Well," the internet replied, after a long drawn in breath (because of course, the internet breathes. You must have known that), "Simply put, there are two options. Karma, of course, is the most popular approach. Some might think you must have been Stalin in a previous life to amount this much bad karma, though."
"What's the other option?" I queried.
"Your player is saving up for a really, really good advantage."
"Well, that can't be it," I retorted, "Unluckiness is only a ten point disadvantage."
"True, true. But when you add up all those disadvantages, who knows what you could do. Breathe under water, maybe."
"Good point. I'll go try that now."

And thus, I died. Goddamn you, internet. You've won again.

Golly Gee Whiz.

2008-03-18T09:58:57Z

I might just be a super happy little girl right now. (On the other hand, I might become very sad very soon...)

But I can't talk about it. Shhh. :p

Bwar.

2008-03-17T03:11:20Z

Webcomic Creation
Jewelry Making
Mythology
History (These two aren't random, I'd pick out specific countries/points)
Developmental or Criminal Psychology
Other (Specify)

Vote plz. I have no mind of my own. Decide what I should learn for me.

Oh, college.

2008-03-01T06:18:31Z

So I had the opportunity to go to a party tonight. With a keg. You know, do the whole "college party" thing.

Instead, I stayed on campus, saw some experimental theater (stole a wiffle ball, FUCK YEAH), and prepared for role playing tonight.

Mine was so much better. Screw being a (even more) stereotypical college student.

Seek ethical dick

2008-01-25T07:51:01Z

So apparently, I'm perverted.

Really, really perverted.

And it's becoming my first impression I make on people.

...*insert frowny face*

One of Denney's friends hit on me. While Corey was in the room. But then Meg showed up. And, like every male on the planet, his attentions turned towards her instantly.

Oh.

And I'm blue.

Ba ba dee da.

2007. Clicheeeeeeee...

2007-12-31T22:19:07Z

1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
Had a whopper. Boring, I know.

2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I never keep my resolutions, so there's no real point in making more.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Nein

4. Did anyone close to you die?
My cat :/

5. What countries did you visit?
California.

6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
Contentment.

7. What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
April 28th...no comment.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Surviving...as usual.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Starting to dye my hair again. FUCK.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Every day :D

11. What were the best things you bought?
Electrical tape.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Corey's, for putting up with me :)

13. Whose behavior appalled you?
People who follow the tabloids. Same as always. Oh, and the dumb cocks who let actors get away with 90 minutes or whatever in jail. Two words. "Fuck" and "you."

14. Where did most of your money go?
Food x_x

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Moving

16. What song will always remind you of 2007?
Everyone's A Little Bit Racist

17. Compared to this time last year, are you: happier or sadder?
Happier, I suppose...but more stressed.

ii. Thinner or fatter?
Way fatter, haha!

iii. richer or poorer?
I have my own money now, so technically richer, though I feel so poor...

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Getting out in general.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Sitting around staring at the TV eating crappy food.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
I spent it with Norm's family, but then I got to see my grandma and aunt :D it was good.

22. Did you fall in love in 2007?
Nah, that happened a while ago :p

23. How many times did you drink too much?
It's never too much! :p actually, I've only had a couple sips all year. So really...none.

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Well...not really much that's new, but this year I discovered Fresh Prince :p Does that count?

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I'm annoyed with less people this year than I was last year. My hate is reserved for people who REALLY deserve it :p

26. What was the best book you read?
I reread Wuthering Heights :)

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Paul Anka? I dunno, I also started getting into metal this year...toss up.

28. What did you want and get?
A Christmas with my love :)

29. What did you want and not get?
A drum set!

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
300!

31. What did you do on your birthday?
Celebrated Andy's birthday...haha. Corey was super sweet all day though. :)

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
If my family had taken care of themselves (and each other!) a bit better.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
How many times can I wear something before it starts to smell funny?

34. What kept you sane?
First off, I'm not sane. What kept me alive and non homicidal would probably be...friends.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
David Tennant :3

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
To be honest, I've been totally out of the loop...politically speaking, that is.

37. Who did you miss?
My cat

38. Who was the best new person you met?
The Awkward Penises.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007.
Ignore the stupid and petty people. They're really not worth your time. (Obvious, huh?)

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"Everyone's a little bit racist
Today.
So, everyone's a little bit racist
Okay!
Ethinic jokes might be uncouth,
But you laugh because
They're based on truth.
Don't take them as
Personal attacks.
Everyone enjoys them -
So relax!"

aunearthlychild @ 2007-12-16T14:21:00

2007-12-16T22:23:08Z

Meg baby

2007-12-11T11:20:52Z

How we fuck your shit up? with TREE! :D

Do I feel alright? no, not slightly

2007-11-30T22:52:52Z

I've been waiting for a WEEK to get a number from my mom. So I can call my doctor. And get my shot records. SO I CAN STAY IN FUCKING SCHOOL.

She gave me a number before...for her chiropractor. x_x At this rate, I'm going to have to sign a waiver saying that if they have a measles breakout, I'll live in a plastic bubble. Which is amazing. Because I've already gotten the goddamn shot.

And Corey put three loads of laundry into two dryers...so...it's all wet. And he had the card with him, so I can't dry them again. I am currently surrounded by clothes hanging around that I'm sporadically spraying with febreeze.

...-_-

I've got something personal going on as well...but I don't really want to talk about it with anyone. I just felt like listing it :p

BUT!!

I should be moving this week. Oh, the joy. In my pants.

And hey, did anyone else notice that you can rate your entries for adult content? when the hell did that happen? or am I just slow? 0_o

...

2007-11-27T21:27:16Z

I wasn't ready.

Another update.

2007-11-24T21:05:11Z

Holy shit. This is my first day this week where I'm actually at home. Relaxing. Not working.

And I'm sick and hormonal. Rawr.

But oh well. A paycheck is a paycheck. I worked my first Black Friday ever. It seemed to go by fast and slow at the same time. I should have learned to stop saying "Wow, I can't believe we don't have more people in here!" because every time it died down, I said that, then BOOM! people start magically appearing out of nowhere.

If one more person asked if we had any more Zunes, Wiis, or that fucking picture frame keychain in stock, I swear I would have bitch slapped them. No, we do NOT have popular items in stock at 6 at night when they were on sale this morning. Go kill yourself.

Or come back on Sunday, as I told many people to do. Hey, I'm not working. I just hope they have someone else who can work electronics. There's gonna be such a rush...

But yeah.

Thanksgiving was pretty good. Went to Corey's cousin's house. It's fucking gorgeous. And totally ironic that the Robs are so good at decorating. I wouldn't mind living there at all.

Aaaand...I have no idea what we'll be doing for Christmas. Either staying here or California. I do not knooow. But I love California, I'm leaning towards it...I'm just worried about leaving my brother up here alone, since my mother doesn't seem to care about that. -_- But I really would love to show Corey Santa Barbara...

*flop*

Guh. I'm tired. I really don't want to deal with roommates. I just want to stay all nice and cozy and happy with my Corey. Bother bother.

Ah well. I'll get over it. And soon, I should have my own room, where I can actually put my stuff and not have to deal with anyone leaving their panties/wet towels on my bed or desk.

When I move, I'm gonna get myself some Christmas lights ^_^ (Which reminds me, I have to go Christmas shopping soon...eep! I should make a list.)

Work. Oi.

2007-11-19T21:12:13Z

Well, this is Thanksgiving break. Yep. A break from school.

And of course, because they were kind enough to place me in electronics, I'm working every day save Thanksgiving itself (which, god help me, they WOULD have scheduled me for if we were open on Thanksgiving).

Me so tired D:

(ALSO, last night I saw Beowulf, and in the previews there was Johnny Depp, as Sweeney Todd. People cheered and threw up the horns. I bitched and flipped them off. It was as polite as I could be, you see, if I had been slightly LESS restrained I would have torn up the screen and attacked the film, and then there would have been no Beowulf for me.)

SO BORED

2007-11-09T22:30:31Z

If you had me alone, locked up in your house for twenty-four hours and I had to do whatever you wanted me to, what would you do with me? All comments will be screened because it's a secret. And, feel free to be anonymous as well. Then repost this in your LJ. You might be surprised with the responses you get.

"Warum hast du mir nie geholfen?"

2007-11-06T09:05:24Z

Downward spiral.

Happy Halloween!

2007-11-01T01:00:39Z

Another year of people not knowing what the fuck I am, but who cares!

Have a marvelous night, lovelies!

Ciao :p

Boohoo, an apple.

2007-10-28T00:31:56Z

Dearest roommate...

In other news...

Time started: 4:51 PM
Full Name: Wouldn't you like to know.
Single or Taken: Bitch, I do the taking.
Sex: Female
Birthday: May 5th, 1988
Siblings: 2 half brothers
Eye colour: Grey-blue-green
Shoe size: 8
Height: 5'7
What are you wearing right now: Blue wings shirt, goodwill jeans (3 bucks, yeeeeah), and Corey's jacket. And maybe some form of undergarment.
Where do you live: Olympia
Righty or lefty: Amby.

Relationships...

Who are your closest friends: Corey, and probably Denney.
Do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend?: Si

Favourites...

Favourite place to shop?: Goodwill...or Building 19.
Favourite kind of ice cream: Anything with caramel
Sport(s): ...what?
Fast-food place: Wendy's
Month: Probably October...for Halloween
Movie: Undecided. Boondock Saints is pretty high on my list.
Juice: Grape
Finger: My thumbs. I fucking despise everything about my hands...except my thumbs.
Breakfast: Chocolate chocolate chip pancakes with strawberry syrup...h'yep.
Favourite cartoon character: The Monarch

Have you ever...

Bungee jumped: Not yet
Made yourself throw-up: I can't.
Eaten a dog: Maybe...
Put your tongue on a frozen pole: Yep...and it didn't freeze.
Loved someone so much it made you cry: ...yeah. I'm emo.
Broken a bone: Sumo wrestling.
Played truth or dare: LOVE.
Been in a physical fight: Multiple times. Ah, middle school...
Been in a police car: Actually, yeah.
Been on a plane: Many. I love liftoff.
Come close to dying: Not terribly close...
Been in a hot tub: My family used to own one...so yeah.
Swam in the ocean: Not since my mum told me that the sharks will eat me. Bitch.
Fallen asleep in school: Never. And I've tried :/
Run away: I've tried, but I ended up badly injuring myself every time.
Broken someone's heart: I doubt it. I think only two people have ever really loved me, and I hope I haven't ever hurt either of them like that :/
Cried when someone died: Yeah...
Cried in school: Many times.
Fell off your chair: I fall a lot.
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: When one of my friends was in a coma, I stayed up for the entire week waiting for updates. I was pretty much hallucinating when she finally woke up.
Saved e-mails: Most of them.
Made out with JUST a friend: Yep
Used someone: ...yeah. But they were using me.
Been cheated on: I wouldn't know.

What is...

Your good luck charm: I don't really have one.
Best song you ever heard: Godzilla
Most stupid thing you have ever done?: Haha. Sophmore year.
What's your room like: My roommate's underwear is on my desk, her wet towel is on my bed, she's knocked my lamp and jewelry over...oh, and I threw an apple towards her trash and she bitched me out for it. :D
Last thing you said: "Go get me an oven, I'll put Michael in for you"
Best thing that has happened to you this year: Moving in with Corey
Worst thing that has happened to you this year?: ...the year's not over yet.

Have You Ever Had...

Chicken pox: Never.
Sore throat: Well, yeah.
Stitches: After surgery, yeah.

Do You...

Believe in love at first sight: No.
Like picnics: Never been.
Like your work: So far. I'm sure by the end of the season I'll hate it.
What schools have you gone to: Santa Barbara preschool, Nederland Elementary, Community Montessori, Home School, Southern Hills Middle School, New Vista High School, Rocky Mountain High School, Home School, Fairview High School, The Evergreen State College
Eat a live hamster for $1,000,000: Do I? no.
If you were stuck on a deserted island for the rest of your life what would you miss the most: Corey. Though I probably wouldn't live that long, I'd get eaten by a wild pig or something within a week.
Who was the last person that called you: Corey?
Who was the last person you slow danced with: I haven't really.
Who makes you laugh the most: Tyler or Michael.
Who makes you smile: Denney.
Who was the last person you kissed: Corey
You yelled at: Corey... :/
Who told you they loved you: Corey
Is your loudest friend: Surinthia.

Do you / Are you...

Do you like filling these out: Occasionally
Do you wear contacts or glasses: Both, different times.
Do you like yourself: It's safe to say I haven't been this unhappy with myself for a very long time.
Do you get along with your family: ...Family? what is this "family" you speak of? nah, I love my brother.
Stolen anything: When I was a kid, I stole fuzzy kitten stickers.
Obsessive: Only when provoked.
Anorexic: Yes. (What the hell kind of question is this?)
Bored: Yes.

Random questions...

What are you listening to right now?: Corey's suitemate's crap rap.
What did you do yesterday: Uh. I forget.
Do you hate anyone in your family: No.
Have you ever gotten any awards: In gymnastics...
What car do you wish to have: I'm gonna go with Mari on this one... OPTIMUS PRIME.
Where do you want to get married: Ireland. And then we're gonna get piss-ass drunk.
If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be: Could I start from scratch, please?
Good driver: ...I'm blonde and female.
Good singer: I don't know, I haven't heard myself sing for a very long time.
Have a lava lamp: No. I fail at college, I know.
How many remote controls are in your house: Two.
Are you double jointed: In some places.
What do you dream about: Stuff.
Last time you showered: This morning.
Last time you took a bath: ...months.
The last movie you saw at the theatres: Shoot 'Em Up
Scary or happy movies: Scary.
Black or white: Black
Root Beer or Dr. Pepper: Dr. Pepper
Mud or Jell-O wrestling: JELL-O
Vanilla or chocolate: Chocolate
Skiing or boarding: I don't like either.
Autumn or winter: Autumn
Silver or gold: Gold
Diamond or pearl: Pearl.
Sunset or sunrise: Sunset
Sprite or 7up: Neither
Coffee or tea: Tea
Phone or in person: In person
Are you oldest, middle, or youngest: Youngest.
Indoors or outdoors: Indoors.
End time: 5:31...I got distracted.

BITCH

2007-10-26T20:19:45Z

Bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch!! bitch, bitch bitch bitch bitch?! BITCH BITCH!

BITCH BITCH BITCH BITCH BITCH BITCH BITCH!!!!!!!!!

Bitch, bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch. Bitch bitch bitch. Bitch bitch bitch bitch BITCH.

BITCH!!

(Figured I would save you the actual rant and show it for what it was. A bitch fest. Thanks. How's life for all of you? not a rhetorical question, I'm sucking at keeping up with people. So hit me with it. TELL ME ABOUT YOUR LIVES. But not your mothers. Save that shit for Freud.)

Update.

2007-10-17T22:38:57Z

So the net has been out on Corey's floor for days now.

A girl was sexually assaulted on campus recently. Apparently, the guy just climbed in through her window. Denney was apparently worried that it was me and kept coming over to Corey's dorm to check and see.

Besides that...I'm really sick. Really, really sick. I might have bronchitis. Which is nasty.

And I have a job. My new manager reminds me of Delores from Dead Like Me. For serious.

There's a lot of rain.

Still haven't started our second RPG, don't think the other one is ever going to happen again. No one is organized, and I think I'm the only one who cares. But we should be starting our BattleTech one once Denney gets back.

I'm also going to try and convince my roommate to switch sides of the room with me...wish me good luck on that one, pleeease.

So yeah. Corey wants me to go get him ice cream XP So I guess that's all.

Catch ya on the flip side.

Superman's Sleeves!

2007-10-11T00:06:05Z

So I'm sitting here in the common room and almost everyone is playing wii or looking at dirty pictures, the way normal people do.

And Corey's roommate comes in and starts babbling about how the one thing that doesn't make sense about Superman...is his sleeves.

...

No words. There are just no words.

Money makes the world go around...

2007-10-06T05:58:35Z

My parents are doing...things. I don't really want to get into it. I don't wanna think about it, really. They're fighting, to put it in simple terms. Though that doesn't begin to cover it. Under normal circumstances, I would side with my mother, but...everything that's going on with both sides...I don't even know.

On another note. I found out today there is NO point in trying to get residency in Washington. I'm already a year (and soon to be a quarter) behind, and I couldn't take more than 6 credits per quarter for an entire YEAR. Which translates to a shit load of money for barely any education. Fuck it, I'm doing 18-20 credits a quarter and getting my ass out as soon as possible.

Which brings me to...money. Oho. Money. I need a job so bad. It's kind of amazing how many places...AREN'T hiring right now. Every time I buy something, even a little essential, I feel bad. I literally cringe. When buying FOOD. Or fucking deodorant. I want to start saving. After all, it's not just me to consider. Though I feel like I haven't been considering anyone else lately. No more extra expenses. No more stupid shit like dying my hair. I'm going to dye it back to my normal color, and leave it the fuck alone. And get a job. Most likely with fast food...or washing dishes in the greenery. Whatever. I can't afford to be high and mighty right now.

Despite how I'm making it sound right now, I'm actually generally happy. My own life is doing well. Corey and I are doing great. I like my friends. My RA is awesome. The rain is...every day, and the way to my dorm is going to flood from what I hear, but that's ok. Life, money and family aside, is good. Those are just two very big factors.